Being a college fresher

The TRANSFORMATION from a school kid to a college freshman is one of the most trying times for any person.

Its when you realize you are not 'Girls & Boys' anymore...it's "Ladies & Gentlemen".

It's when you realize that the people who were with you the previous 10 or so odd years are not with you anymore.
It's a whole new world out there and you are alone to face it.

Wouldn't it be nice to have the same gang you had with you in school along with you in college? But unfortunately in the real world it's not going to happen. Even if you were lucky enough to have your pals:roll: around you, they are still sailing in the same boat.

So lets face it. Either you find the best of friends or sometimes the worst.The first year of college or more precisely the first few weeks are the hardest.
So how does it feel to be fresher?
is it scary?

Or is it tense?

Well every body goes through it and we all came out of it for the better.
Everyone has their own favorite memory as a fresher!!!!
Share your experience....
it could be anything from getting ragged, to havin a crush or kind of friends u made ......

Piece of bullshit is what you might call this. But is it?? Deceiving people isn’t all that difficult- me being a champ at it- but is there any point in cheating ourselves??? I was once told by my mum that every damn person on this earth has something special about him. The sole purpose of one’s life should thus be to discern that trait and make the most of it.


Being brought up in an overtly protective environment- read: school- where I enjoyed quite a bit of popularity; entering college was a major setback. In a matter of few days I was thrown into a whole new world where I had to compete with others on a common platform. I wasn’t the ‘star’- not even a
self made one- that I was in school. This gave me a reality check and left
me completely disoriented. Nobody knew me. I had to work hard again to carve my own niche which had come all too easily to me earlier. Disillusioned, I set out to find my true calling. To unearth that one thing in me, which would set me apart from the rest.

"Who am I?? What do I want in life?? What do I expect from it??"

Insecurity-of getting lost in the crowd- plagued me like anything. I had bouts of depression worse than that of a junkie trying to prevent his graveyard shift. Was I just another guy, living just another life?? Or was I being too idealistic?? Were the people around me really endowed??? Or was it just my acuity???

I had started enjoying seclusion, not because I loved being alone but because I hated being with others. The void within me was taking its toll on me and on others around me. I had become oblivious to camaraderie; my relationships had lost their warmth and charm. All this had put me into the worst identity crisis situation possible.

So as to get my f****d up life back on track- totally clueless about what the future held in store for me- I decided to let myself loose and flow into the hands of destiny. I decided to put my best foot forward in all the things I did and leave the rest to fate. I realized that the only option left with me was to work my way to the top of the heap all over again- slowly, yet steadily. It was my determination and trust- in destiny- that helped me come to terms with life. Although I still ain’t very sure of what I want in life or what I expect from it, I have a direction. My life is much more balanced and momentous now. I have set my priorities right and now am proud to say

"I am what I am!!!!"


(had written it kaafi pehle....thought of posting it here just because i thought it fitted in here)

heyyy sahil i can really relate my own life with what u said ....
talk abt identitiy crisis...i was unable to recognize how i transformed my personality from being the most friendly person in school to a loner after 1st yr college

i had hard luck with friends in college ...don take me wrong i don mean everyones bad ....i dint fit into to the world i chose to be in

As sahil said .... "I had started enjoying seclusion, not because I loved being alone but because I hated being with others. "

I did try making new friends...kept tellin myself there might be a meager percentage of ppl who unlike others are not cake shut by the dust of deception.....but my transformation was so strong i could harldy trust or get close to anyone whatsoever ....

instead of thinkin im a failure , could i perhaps accept that im just normal ...OK!!! so it will be ....

Then my emotions rose ..i began feelin frustrated angry and lonely....my mind protested and said...you"re a failure !!!.......

it s not "ladies and gentleman" really...its more like "fachchi and fachcha" or even 4 dat matter "bakri aur bakra"

wait till graduation for the "respect" tags

@ devi...well...frankly, am in that situation all over again...dunno abt u tho... just too uncertain...too unclear...

girl...you are so ryt...get used to it!!! but the problem with me is that i soo can't take wats happening around me soo easily...i dunno why but i have to react...and dat's the reason behind the miseries of life....sob sob!!

thts true but U know wht one thing i learnt is to KEEP MY MOUTH SHUT durin such situations ...the dog tht barks solemn bites sweetie heheh ......let those losers do their talkin ....

thats the big issue...i really can't keep teh trap shut!!!!

What can i say?? BE YOURSELF AND KEEP ROCKIN GAL!!!!

cheers

yea...that's wat i have been doing...using the trap aptly...for letting teh losers know what they are...m havin fun!!hehe

zats a neat topic u put up zere devi...kudos!

first day in my college was absolutely wonderful...better than i had expected it to be....infact the entire month was one good surprise after another....i met like-minded people. ..got along with the un-like-minded ppl as well... ..was in a completely new course so had no idea what i was getting into....it was one new discovery after another...one surprise package after another......the crowd was bindaas, the teachers double-bindaas...n the seniors were good to us too...since our college is one lil building...everybody knows everybody...so became a known face in college in no time at all......i thot life was going to be a smoooth roller-coaster thereon...

thats wat i thot:roll:

suddenly, all of a sudden, a bolt of lightning struck....

all those outings with pals, the hanging-outings at cafe terrace,the classes, the discussions, the assignments, the canteen food, the cats of the building, everything seemed to lose meaning...nothing seemed to make sense

there was just too much noise all around me.....all the gossip, the chatter, the lecture was nothing less than plain noise.....
to everything, i would just ask....whats the point? whats the point? tell me the bloody point?????
all the work...all the talks...everything i did seemed to lose their point....and i was getting consumed in the pointlessness of it all....my life...my aim...my purpose...it was all a haze...a blurry haze

i disconnected frm my friends...i stopped talking to my family....i wud bunk my classes and run off, alone to someplace in cp...seeking solace in solidarity.....i was falling in a bottomless pit where all u could see was darkness and all u could hear was noise....it just wudnt stop….

So life was an aimless journey…all I could see was a long winding treelined road with everything in its place….the cars rolling, people strolling, a dog or cat or two there…my circumstances were gr8…things were running smooth around me…

But I was experiencing hell…within

The point im trying to make here is this

Sometimes it takes a lot fer u to go through to understand or to open ur eyes to urself…to c within urself.. to realize things abt ur ppl n urself

While at other times, all it takes is a new environment



For me all it took was the first 6 months in zis big black glass building…which is my dear old college….



So first year experience



Its different

njoii it!

seems liek a similar story sup!!!

yup...which is why i took ze trouble to write!

so next time we meet...we both will take the trouble TO DISCUSS!!

right on mish:)

count me in!!!! heheh