its addled n barmy n crazy n ditzy n empty n foolish n......

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[color=#525252]A leaf floating with the meandering river
A flower bending with the breeze
A feather in the air...cascading slowly but surely
A rivulet formed by an idle pebble
An ant scuttling to find home
A squirrel restless
A shepherd trying to get back the sheep
A ball kicked and picked at random
A song without words
A book full of empty pages
A blip in the cosmos




Im a nut


All set to flunk. To fail. Conk-out. Flop. Crash. Fall-through:bball:

I'm nothing. I'm dumb. I'm a blip. Cretinous. Dense. Dim. Doltish. Dopey. Gormless. Imbecilic. Ineducable. Vacuous. Lumpish. Barmy. Irrelevant. Zonked-out.


Its ridiculous. I am ridiculous. I said ‘no’ again today. For the infinith
time in the 19 long years of my short life, I gave a big fat NO. To what? A job offer? A pleading beggar? A proposal? An errand order? An outing with friends? Nope……..


I said no to chocolate….a perfectly delectable piece of dark chocolate.

Now one would wonder…..errrr…..and whats the big deal? Its just chocolate. Why would you abuse yourself so colourfully fer saying no to a piece of chocolate?

Because I love chocolate!!

So?

But I said no to something I like!

So? Its just chocolate!

That’s not the point!

All right….why did u say no to chocolate?

Because I don’t like it anymore!

By jove girl……ur driving me nuts…..so whats the big deal??????

The big deal is……I used to adore chocolate before….have it day in and day out….could never say no to it……and now …all of a sudden….I don’t want it… I don’t like it….I’m bored of it….and its not because I’m fat either…zats ok

I still didn’t get you…..you talk as if it’s the end of the world…giving up chocolate is not exactly an overwhelmingly life-changing decision ….you want to get dramatic….start reading Shakespeare…..u will soon get suicidal…..

That’s not the point!!!!

Then pray tell me WHAT is in ur nutty little head??

I cant seem to stick onto anything…. I don’t like a single thing fer a very long time…..My passion passes with the passage of time….and that aint called passion……and that’s what I yearn for….
A passion
A madness
A burning desire to do something
And stick to it


Aaaah….so ur problem is not the chocolate…it’s the ‘no’

Yesss…finally Im understood…..enlightenment dawns upon my alter ego….and I hope u can show me the path where I find a clearing out of the dark woods of these self-consuming, self-.
I want to get back that wide-eyed wonder
I want not to look at everything with the eyes of a cynic
I want to like my life and not just live it


If there is anyone u hate with all yer heart n all u can do is curse n u want to bestow a curse worse than death….wish that soul to be bestowed with laziness:sleep:

I think somebody dislikes me quite intensely…because lately I have been blessed with this ‘unforgivable curse’ called laziness…n I was lazy enough to check out ze meaning of zis darned word too!

According to the UNIVERSAL DICTIONARY ( the big fat grey one), ze meaning goes like zis

La-zy(láyzi)
1. Resistant to work or exertion; given to idleness;slothful
2. Slow-moving; sluggish : a lazy river
3. Conducive to languor or indolence : a lazy day
origin : [Perhaps from Low German akin to lasich, idle]

Resistance to work happens when ze work becomes a burden…work becomes a burden when u stop enjoying it…u stop enjoying it when u lose interest in it…u lose interest in it when u find somefink else more interesting or when u want to do somefink else…u want to do somefink else when u get bored of yer present work…boredom comes out of restlessness…n zat causes resistance to work

So im restlessly lazy:afro:

And this blog is simply a series of random thoughts….if u can find meaning in it…well n good…
And if u can’t……join ze club!!

amen

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i think i wanna be a partof this club........hope it isn t exclusive like gymkhana!

not at all mate:)